running away from shadows

Some things just don’t go away. It’s like you trying to avoid your own shadow: it doesn’t work. They cling on to you, whether or not you remember their existence. And when you do, it’ll affect you just like how it always does.

I thought that it had ended. My love-hate relationship. But talking about it brought back bittersweet memories. The tears fell when the sensitive parts were recalled. The euphoria, the disappointment, the excitement, the pain, the satisfaction, the downtimes. I realised that it’d never be over. The scars can be hidden, but the tears will still flow and the ache in my heart will always exist, no matter the years passed, the dust settled upon it, or the number of times I recount the experience to others.

I learnt something new today… Whether I like it or not, the shadow is here to stay.